As my sister wrote in her recent blog, 1115, she talks about how our family and others always try to give of the apperence of being "normal". If any family is abnormal, it is mine.
For some reason, it is so important to my parents to make sure everyone in the world knows we are okay. People see us as the large, white, Christian family; who attends chuch multiple times a week, participates in countless church activities and lead groups at our church. Some know some of our history, including the messy devorce my parents went through, causing my mom to leave the church; taking Steve ( my step-dad, and previously married to another member of our church) with her. Some believe God help us through it and brought Amy ( my step-mom) "into our lives". By adding Amy and Steve to my family; the number of siblings I had increased too. From 2 to 6 siblings, my life changed.
I decided a while ago that I was tired of living a life according to other people. Of course I make mistakes and some of them I really don't want people to find out about. But now I think people know I am not a perfect, Christian teenage girl; NO ONE IS! Everyone says teenagers make mistakes, or " You're a kid, of course you will mistakes!" The choices are not mistakes! I'll live the way I want to live and make the choices I want to. Some may be stupid or the wrong choice, but that is how you learn. Many say that my parents or audults have gone through the situations that teens are faced with today. So what! Let me learn for myself how heartbreak feels or the dissappointment of the consequeses of my actions.
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